I am 19, I live in London and I am currently working in retail and studying towards a Degree. I mainly post about my life and sometimes reblog funny pictures. I talk to anyone so if you're bored/lonely send me a message :).
My plan for tomorrow:
Get up at a reasonable time
Have a shower
Put my dirty clothes in the washing machine
Go to the shop and buy some proper food
Change my bedsheets
Fill in some of my UCAS application
All of those things are achievable. I just need to take things slowly and not overwhelm myself.
The dogs left last week and I thought I would be able to cope with it ok but I have fallen to pieces. I’ve had to take time off work, I can’t sleep and I have no desire to eat. My anxiety has gone into overdrive and the thought of leaving the house scares me which is ridiculous. Everyone I’ve spoken to has told me that I need to accept that they’ve gone and move on with my life which isn’t exactly helpful. I have an essay due in at midnight which I haven’t even started as I can’t stop sobbing.
The dogs are going to a rescue centre next week and I need to fill in some forms which asks about their behavior and a hundred other questions. I’ve spent most of today crying over it although I know the sooner they find a stable home it will be better for them in the long run. It just hurts so much that it’s ended this way.
I feel really crap today so I am just going to watch The Office until I feel better.
These early morning shifts are killing me. Waking up at 5:30 twice a week is horrible. I am changing my shift times so I will only have 3 more early starts until I move onto lates. It can’t come soon enough.
So I was essay writing and now I am looking at holidays…
Can someone please send me some motivation?
I have an essay to write but am very tired from life and right now I want to spend my day in bed but I know that if I do at the end of the day I will feel worse for not studying.